Im thankful...

You're filling out everything I was deprived of. Spending holidays together (like thanksgiving), being in comfort 'til the wee hours of the morning, and the convenience of living in the same city. Back and forth we exchanged what we're thankful for and your last one caught me off guard. Even though some of my family's in Vegas, others filled in as a good enough proxies. Seeing the genuine happiness of those being served the hot meals made my Thanksgiving. Through my perspective, I think Ive experience what Thanksgiving's all about; I served the less fortunate, bonded with family, spent Thanksgiving with the ones who rock my world. Thanksgiving 2010, you're the best Thanksgiving so far.

Our gear has been on auto pilot for quite a while. The constant subtle motions leave a sensational trail. When you're the first one to lace, I can't help but smile. I vacillate whether my thoughts are on the same path we're on or if I am way off course. Only time will tell. "Good things happen to those who wait."

Sorry Nelly, it wasnt only just a dream.

I tend to hold on to the past because it can be classified better than the present. But it's different when I'm in your presence; I focus on what's within the moments and even the mere-future. My reassurance has been reciprocated with a legible meaning behind it. Fall's here and so is the snuggling season, which actually plays a role. As the setting screams Christmas, with only the Christmas tree as our source of light, everything felt relative and in it's rightful place. I'm feeling grown up and superior; I no longer need to leave details out when informing my mom about hanging out with a guy and having you stay until the hours of the morning just hits the spot. I'm starting to notice the meaning behind your eyes; our eyes are synonyms. Gradually, thing's are falling into place; just the way I like it. It's a different path from previous ones, but you deserve "different" because you're not like the rest. Mind you, you're THE only exception according to my guidelines and that should partially express how much I feel. Everyone has flaws, but you know when you're falling because their flaws become gold. MATURITY is key and boy, you got that in a bag. Manners and respect; you can keep me applauding. I no longer want to dismiss my guy's stupid comments and have to excuse his words and manners on my behalf. I've bonded with your family and you're the one guy that I can feel confident about meeting mine. I know this is a dream I've been yearning to strike reality, but you can't blame me. Life's all about chasing your dreams and here I am at a steady pace chasing it with ease.

Reading puts me in my own world; some me-time does the trick. Page after page, I'm reliving the memories and referring to how you make me feel...

I died today and went to heaven

< & >

I cant deny that I still do care. I guess I can't help knowing you chose that. Despite that, my feelings have finally hit the closest they've ever been to ground level.

On the other hand, everytime I see you, I STILL get that natural high. Crazy isnt it? There aren't much people who have that power over me. I can't help but stare when you're not looking, search when you've come out of sight, and wonder when you're no where to be found. Your smile makes me light up and you give me nothing but good vibes. You never bring negativity in my life. (: No girl deserves extra stress, but you give me exactly the opposite. Thanks for making sure you fulfilled hanging out with me last night tho :) More and more people are advising me to tell you my secret. Let's just face it, I probably wont.

Hello, Goodbye

-I never knew something of this sort would arise, but it has. I'm fine with the situation considering it had it's fair share of interrogation and explanation. Actually, Im more than fine; things have gotten better :) We might still be where we've always been, but who said that wasnt enough? Thanks for showing me how much you care. Let's continue this streak because if it dies, I'd be missing this.

-Little by little it's hitting me. I'll let you be. My reasoning for squeezing myself inn was that I thought you guys didnt meet the definition of your labeling. Finally, Im seeing it. I don't wanna ruin things, I really dont. You've showed me what you guys are capable of and Im backing off. Ill let things go with the flow and I wont go above and beyond what I should be doing. Goodbye to trying and seeing what could've been, but hello to finally getting over you.